Perspective






I just sat there, staring at the screen, where an unnamed platform told me in cheerful letters that my book was now LIVE. I gasped, bashed on all kinds of keys, refreshed, did what I could. Nothing changed. My novella was officially launched upon an unsuspecting world.

My first proper thought? “Thankfully it was only a novella and not a real book.” Of course, by the time I receive a copy of Viking Ferry, it will look like a book. It has letters on the spine, that’s how real it is. It has an ISBN on the back. But in my mind, it’s not a real book, ‘only’ a novella.

The same way I’m not a real writer, ‘only’ a mum who writes when not sorting out sibling squabbles or missing socks. Are you like that? ‘Only’ a part-time writer? Only someone who writes some poems? Maybe I’m the only one who brushes off what I do. “I like to sit down and write stories, just for fun, you know.”

This time, bringing out a book is even worse. As soon as I published it, I thought, “Why didn’t I make it into a proper book, with extra storylines and hair-raising adventures?” It was meant as a short story, but I felt bad about my character being left on a beach with a bunch of Vikings. It ended up being a story about forgiveness. For can you forgive enemies who aren’t even real?



So why do I feel that Walled City and Sapphire Beach are real books, and I’m happy to tell people about them, but Viking Ferry is different? When I thought about it, I realised that I’m like that towards God as well. Does our worship reflect this attitude? Singing out of tune whilst washing up, is that the same kind of worship as singing with other believers? Does the person who can hold a tune worship more than the person who’s hopelessly lost in the melody?

I know some people feel like that about writing. “That’s not a poem, for it doesn't rhyme.” But is funny verse, slapped together for fun, proper poetry just because we managed to make the last words rhyme? What criteria do we have for our writing? Does it have to have a real, proper, Gospel message in it to count? Do we feel God is frowning down on us as we’re writing because the character didn’t say grace before their meal?

You see, I write because it’s a great release at the end of a busy day. It’s where I wonder on paper what serving God looks like. I wondered what it would be like to wake up on a ferry after a nap, to find yourself surrounded by Vikings. Why do you write? I want to serve God, but I suddenly realised that the number of pages wasn’t part of God’s perspective. My life doesn’t get more spiritual, the more pages of writing I produce. Perspective, such an important thing to check in our lives!


 My name is Maressa Mortimer, and I’m Dutch. I live in the beautiful Cotswolds, England, with my husband who is a pastor. We have four (adopted) children. I’m a homeschool mum, so my writing has to be done in the evening, when peace and quiet descends on our house once more. I love exploring questions of faith using novels, as it helps me to see what faith looks like in daily life. My debut novel, Sapphire Beach, was published December 2019. My latest novel, Walled City, launched on December 5th, 2020, and I’m nearing the first draft of its sequel! And Viking Ferry, a novella, has unexpectedly been released at the end of March!

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  1. This sentence made me smile: 'It was meant as a short story, but I felt bad about my character being left on a beach with a bunch of Vikings.' You are such a funny lady. I really get what you're saying though about novellas. My first book 'Being Miss' is a novella and the second a memoir so technically I'm not even a novelist yet. Am I? Is there a difference between a novella-ist and a novelist?

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  2. Exactly, and perspective is so important to help us when it comes to the big one of us comparing ourselves to other seemingly more successful / prolific writers too. We need to remember that our validation is not in how many hours we spend writing, or how many words we bash out, or how many books we have published, but in our calling to write.

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  3. The question also arises: if one prays more about that techie side - website, blogs, e-newsletters - might become easier and less inclined to fall into the various holes and impossibilities built into tech, would they become smoother and easier? We are writers - but computer nerds, marketeers, PR specialists... not so much... (that is, me - it may or may not be you, Reader...) Congrats on getting another one out Maressa!

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    1. Thank you! Yes, although prayer may be answered with a No...

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  4. Yes, that word. "Only." "only a scribbler," "I only write part time" and so one. For a woman who homeschools four children, producing three books, whatever they're called (and I love your line about waking up on a ferry with Vikings) is a blooming HUGE achievement by anyone's standards

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  5. I love this, Maressa. I spend more time writing than teaching nowadays but I still say, 'I'm a teacher but also a free-lance writer.' For the first time recently, I heard myself saying 'I'm a writer but I also teach part - time'. I think it's because I'm afraid of sounding pretentious. But no one else would think that. And even if they do... as you say, if it's what we're called to do, it doesn't matter what others thinks. Great post.

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  6. Well done, Maressa. You are a prolific writer and the more we write the more we learn. Keep writing!

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  8. I love your attitude, Maressa! Wonderful. I know what you mean about not being a 'real' anything. And is it just me, or is there a huge elephant in the comment room?

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    1. Thank you, Dawn! Haha, yes, a rather annoying elephant, hopefully the elephant can be made to disappear?

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