More than Writers

  How are you with deadlines? 👉Are they a necessary evil, something that you’d rather live without, but accept are part of a writing life? 👉Are they the only thing that drives you to complete a piece of work? Or even start it! 👉Or do they fill you with anxiety and dread, to the extent that you can’t actually produce anything at all? I’m the last one, without a doubt. My second year exams at university didn’t go as well as hoped because I was ready too soon. I didn’t know how long it would take me to learn two years worth of history notes and I dreaded running out of time, having to try and cram information into my brain in the last few hours before an exam; ‘doing an all-nighter’, which a lot of my friends swore by. Even the idea of it still makes me hyperventilate.      To avoid this nightmare I started revising early, too early. By the time the exams came round I was bored of the Roman emperors, I’d overthought the causes of the Chinese Opium wa...

  What the Eye Doesn’t See by Sheelagh Aston   It does not look like much. A simple wooden cross hung on the wall. Two planks of wood fixed together. No inscription or fancy carving. Plain and simple. On closer inspection, you may notice that the wood is worn in places and has hair-line cracks. Despite the new coat of varnish, the grain is deep and varied. This is old wood that has aged over time thanks to weathering, oxidation and moisture. Yet it is only now that people can see these two pieces of wood despite the fact that they have been in the same building as the wall they hang on for nearly 100 years. Only now are they visible for everyone to see. The cross was made from two floorboards removed from a local church where I live. The church has stood on the corner of the main street since 1832. It was closed in September 2024 until it was bought by a Christian Fellowship and reopened earlier this month. A local carpenter made the cross. When someone reads our wri...

  I checked the faces on the screen three times, four times… I could no longer deny it. Emily was in the Zoom call. I’ve not seen her for ages, yet flashbacks made it seem as though I saw her yesterday: - Copious amounts of chocolate (for her, not me). - Bashing away in frustration at the keyboard (that mostly happened during editing). - Desperation/Inspiration walks (again, her not me). Let it be known that I never left my post. I remained saved to her computer countless times. It did occur to me she should have saved herself to it, all those walks. - An email from her publisher asking her to add another section to me. (She ate the chocolate, I put on weight.) Mercifully, the flashbacks were interrupted by my owner, holding me up to her screen.  I reminded myself to relax: even a chocolate-eating, keyboard-stabbing, desperation-walker can not jump through a Zoom screen. I was safe. “On my first day at work, I saw this book. And that’s why I wanted to invite ...

It’s been a great year for daffodils. I love the way they brighten the roadsides, popping up for a few weeks to surprise and delight the motorist. Grand displays herald spring in local parks and small bunches decorate our homes. They lift our spirits and mark a change of season. What is not so great is the few weeks afterwards when the bright display is replaced by dead flowers and drooping leaves which gradually turn yellow. When that happens in my garden I find I want to move on, to get rid of the foliage. I’d really like something else of beauty to take its place. I tell myself not to be in such a rush. This stage is important, the dead flower can be removed but the leaves need to be left to die off naturally, until they are completely dry. If the leaves are removed too soon, the bulb is stopped from taking in important nutrients in preparation for next year’s blooms. If I don’t wait future growth is impacted.  I realise I feel a little like this with my writing. I write alongsi...

While I’ve been navigating my way through being my husband’s carer, time to write has been almost non-existent even though I believe deep down inside me there are things God wants me to record. Each morning I try to spend time with God before the day’s essential routines begin. For some time now the word ‘manna’ has inspired my prayers and my journalling.  The Israelites wandered around in the unknown, much like I feel now, and were provided with what they needed for the day. Manna was apparently nourishing, bread-like food that tasted like ‘wafers made with honey’ (Ex. 16:31). It would rot by the next day if they tried to keep it, but there would always be a fresh supply in the morning. My prayer each day has been, ‘Please give me the manna I need for today.’ By that I mean wisdom, energy and strength to negotiate the ever-changing and increasing demands of coping with dementia and serious ill-health – because what works today may not work tomorrow. I cannot hold rigidly to any ...

  Down here, below the equator, schools are blasting through their summer term which is the beginning of their school year, heading for autumn.   The leaves aren’t turning quite yet, but as I walked through the playing fields of Rondebosch Boys High School, I could see that things have changed. The fields have been marked out for sports and Wednesday afternoons are now a riot of cheering, amid the chaos of multiple games of cricket, tennis and hockey (it doesn’t appear to be seasonally dependent here) while rugby coaching continues and some equivalent of cycling proficiency goes on.   The middle field has been marked out in white as an athletics track and I watched grandparents and grandchildren engage in mock ‘races’ there at the weekend. Most fascinating to me is the space for the shot-put.   I originally thought they must be coaching hammer throwing, but the lack of safety net suggests that’s not the case.   I’m sure the locals are heaving a sigh of relief as...