How Goes the Plan? By Georgie Tennant
I was looking forward to
Friday. It had been a hectic week. On Monday, I had driven an hour away to meet
an old friend for brunch; no violins required here – this one fell squarely
into the ‘leisure’ category – but still, the too-rapidly-passing child-free
school hours were consumed. On Tuesday,
I attended the church prayer meeting, where I had been asked to share some
thoughts on prayer; I enjoyed both preparing and delivering these. The rest of my waking hours were, this time,
consumed by setting up and helping at a pancake party to raise funds for
Christians Against Poverty, for whom I volunteer. With the children safely in bed at 8:30 p.m,
when we finally got back home, it wasn’t much longer before I, too, slipped into
a sugar-induced coma. Work filled
Wednesday and Thursday in a flurry of lesson planning, covering, after-school
revision and marking of Year 11 Mock Exams.
And so Friday beckoned.
I think I enjoyed the pancake race a little bit too much - photo used with permission |
Often, on a Friday, I try
to meet up with a friend in need for coffee, or I am the friend in need, meeting up with someone else. On this glorious Friday, however, all I had
on my calendar was one, one hour appointment, in the middle of the day. “Finally,” I told myself, “you can get some
writing done – like you said you would, on your plan.” Relief kicked in, to alleviate some of the “you
have failed to write,” guilt that has a tendency to slither up and wrap itself around me in a suffocating grip. This would be the
day.
“How would you feel about
making some cakes for the Ladies’ Day?” asked a friend, the night before. I decided it wasn’t too tricky an ask and
replied in the affirmative. “I can do
that first thing,” I told myself, “still go to my appointment, and write
later. All still good.”
Friday dawned and I awoke
with one of those revelations that can only be from God to save you serious
stress and embarrassment later on – I was on the rota to deliver the teenagers
section of the church children’s work on Sunday. How had I not remembered this before? I am not, in any way, a ‘Last Minute Lottie’. I am a ‘Week Before Wanda’ – in fact, a ‘Fortnight
Before Florence,’ given the chance. I
messaged my friend, with whom I was on the rota; she had forgotten too. We joked about the slightly-too-close possibility
that we could have reached Sunday with no plans or resources and I assured her
that I would get it sorted. The morning
sped past, building a teenager-friendly session on ‘The Armour of God,’
complete with a bag of props and a dodgy song.
Baking would have to wait until later.
So would writing.
At this point, my
brother-in-law messaged with great excitement to tell me he had a new, fancy
coffee machine – did I want to pop in to sample it? You can work out for yourself what I should
have said and what I actually did. At
about 3 p.m, I was knee deep in buttery, floury dishes, willing the shortbread
to cook before I had to collect the children from school and get them to a
church children’s event at a local soft play (joy of joys on a Friday night), within
the hour. Later that night, I lamented
my lack of writing, vowing not to make the same mistakes on my next ‘free’ day.
I think we can all empathise with this Mr Man! |
I’m sure you recognise the
scenario; so many of us have children and day jobs and elderly parents, family
responsibilities and huge church commitments.
We have such great intentions for our writing but never quite seem to
pull them off. What can we do about
this? How can this change?
At the beginning of the
new year, there were a flurry of helpful and inspiring posts about planning our
writing (Lucy Rycroft) and sticking with it with resilience (Jane Clamp). Now here we are in March, already a quarter
of a way through the year. Perhaps it’s
time to check in with ourselves and ask – how am I doing? How is my plan going? God, what do you think
about it all?
Taking up Lucy Rycroft’s
helpful thoughts, back in January, about making a writing plan, I stole some time
in a hospital waiting room, one day, and sketched out a calendar for the month
ahead, blocking out and colour-coding events that would take up my time (much
to the amusement of the old man opposite, who watched with fascination and
called me ‘unusual’ and ‘unique’ for my handwritten methods). The aim, upon completion of such a calendar,
was to then block out some writing time, to make sure it happened.
Help, where is the writing time?! |
My excitement and drive
quickly turned to dismay. Looking at all
the things that would take up my days, alongside the multitude of other things
that would take up my evenings, it was tempting to conclude that I should
shelve my writing for at least a decade, by which time the children might just
about both be living away, at University or in their first jobs. Anyone who shares my drive to write, however,
will know this is not an option – I wouldn’t be able to shelve it for that long
without internally combusting! So I set
out to fill in some gaps (often amounting to no more than a couple of hours, in
reality), with the tentatively scrawled word “writing?” The question mark made me feel better, as if
there was a chance it might let me off the hook if it wasn’t looking like an
option when the designated days rolled around.
I have found this very
small amount of planning (if you can even call it that – “tentative possibility
assessment” might be closer to the truth) to have revolutionised my thinking about
my writing. Instead of feeling gloomy
that weeks might pass, without any real opportunity to write, I’m seizing any
small offering of time that looks like it might work. If I see “writing?” in my week ahead, it
motivates me to turn off Twitter, hold the hoovering (because, let’s face it,
it only looks hoovered for ten minutes anyway!) and turn the “writing-question
mark” into “writing – full stop” (OK, I admit, it’s more like “writing-exclamation
mark”, as I get a bit over-excited and self-congratulatory). If I succeed in turning the question mark
into a full stop, I draw a big box around it and note down next to it what
exactly it was that I wrote, as a way of setting up way-markers on the path
for myself, so that I can look back and remind myself that I’m doing better
than I think I am, whenever I am tempted to metaphorically beat myself up.
I’ve also found that it
helps me to plan ahead better. If I have
“writing?” on my calendar, I am more likely to think about what I want to write
on that day. This is helping me with my
wider resolutions for writing, which I sat and pondered and wrote down at the
start of the year. Keeping these
resolutions (big picture thinking) alongside my smaller-detail, practical
thinking, is spurring me on in my writing like never before. I’m still nowhere near where I want to be, or
anywhere near up there with those further on in their writing adventure – but I
know, with certainty, that these small actions are laying the foundations for
many other bricks to be added on top of them, much further down the line.
I end with a guilty
confession – I love watching the TV series ‘The Flash,’ made all the more
endearing by its bad acting and terrible plot-lines. Leonard Snart, one of the cold-hearted
baddies from an early series had a motto that I’m inclined to agree with - "Make
the plan. Execute the plan. Expect the plan to go off the rails. Throw away the
plan.” In our busy lives, it might be
next to impossible to stick with any sort of writing plan – but at least if we
have one, in the first place, it will get us moving in the right direction,
even if that direction changes later on.
After all, “Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s
purpose that prevails.” Proverbs 19 v 21. How are your
2019 writing plans going so far? Don’t
give up on them. Dig them out and get
back to them with renewed fervour. You
just don’t know where they might lead.
Georgie Tennant is a secondary
school English teacher in a Norfolk Comprehensive. She is married, with
two sons, aged 10 and 8, who keep her exceptionally busy. She writes for
the ACW ‘Christian Writer’ magazine occasionally, and is a contributor to the ACW-Published
‘New Life: Reflections for Lent,’ and ‘Merry Christmas, Everyone: A festive
feast of stories, poems and reflections.’ She writes the ‘Thought for the Week’
for the local newspaper from time to time and also muses about life and loss on
her blog: www.somepoemsbygeorgie.blogspot.co.uk
We sang a song at church yesterday with the line 'I stand in awe of you' and I know it's meant to be about God, but reading about your schedule makes me want to sing it to you, too. (Take a bow.) You clearly have a servant heart that finds you committed to many things. Time to write must be hard to find. On the OTHER hand, when we have our local ACW group, we're always saying to each other after writing exercises, 'Look what we just wrote in 20 minutes! How is that possible?' We're all convinced we need hours, or a day, to write anything decent. But it's not true. I heard a famous writer say recently that we should just commit to 10 minutes a day. We might only do the 10. We might find it stretches to much more, and it often will. But regularity is the key to feeling we're 'on it'. I'm rambling now. I will stop.
ReplyDeleteWhat an inspiring and encouraging comment, Fran. Good on you!
DeleteI love the way you led us on a journey through your week, Georgie, with all it's twists and turns. Some wonderful vivid descriptions, 'knee deep in buttery, flourey dishes.' Great plan but to be honest it would take me long enoghth to create something like that. I get up at 6ish every morning and try and do at least 10 mins writing, well that's the plan, not always successful. Sometimes it's reading and commenting on someone else's writing,but I'm still learning though that.Loved this line too, “you have failed to write,” guilt that has a tendency to slither up and wrap itself around me in a suffocating grip.' Just that word 'slither' is so powerful and instantly captures your attention or makes your skin crawl, as it does me.
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