This Topsy-Turvy God, by Liz Carter
I’ve been thinking a lot about kingdom values lately, and
how they apply to my writing. Subversive values which turn the thinking of our
culture on its head – values which mean the weak are strong and the poor are
rich, the failures are successes and the dregs are the honoured. God’s
incredible order of grace means that all those negative labels we apply to
ourselves, all the rejection words we speak over ourselves, are turned upside
down and our ashes transformed to beauty.
Never so pertinent as in our writing trials and
tribulations.
I’ve been through a rollercoaster of a journey for the last
few years with my writing. I’d known for years I wanted to write books; I’d
made attempts when much younger but life took over and as my health worsened I
told myself it was just another thing I’d failed at, another ambition I hadn’t
reached and never would.
But it niggled at me, and then shoved me full in the face. I
couldn’t let it go, it was part of me, it was in me. Writing books wasn’t just
an ambition, it was a need so desperate it wouldn’t let go. It was a calling.
So I started. I wrote a novel and I began to learn about the craft of writing,
soaking up books about the art and about style and showing and telling and all
those other crucial things. I loved the process and the book poured from me,
getting itself onto paper in a great rush of enthralling creativity. I was
there! This was what I was made to do!
Then came the rejections. The agents’ one line emails. Not for us. Wouldn’t fit our list. Not something
I’m interested in. The occasional bite which sent me flying high. Please send your full MS. Really like your
concept. Lovely writing. But all coming to nothing.
Then I wrote another book. I wrote a book I felt God had
been cultivating in my mind for a long time, and I submitted a proposal to IVP
and it was commissioned. I was ecstatic. I thought that I would never feel weak
or a failure again; I’d done it. I was going to get published.
But it wasn’t quite like that. The bumpy road of my editor’s
frank and sometimes painful comments sent me into some dark places, places
where I could only fall at God’s feet and ask for his help. I couldn’t do this
thing on my own. God spoke so lovingly and faithfully about his kingdom grace,
and I came to understand Jesus’ weakness in a much fuller way through these
years of excitement then rejection on repeat. Jesus was fully human and suffered
in a way none of us can even comprehend, far from a figure of power and
strength, and yet brought about the greatest triumph in history.
I love the writings of Paul, because one of his underpinning
narratives is that of this subversion of power and riches. Whenever I feel that
I am too weak, I read some of Paul’s verses about God’s power being made perfect
in weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9) and how God has chosen the foolish things of
the world to shame the wise (1 Corinthians 1:27). I love this crazy wild grace,
this outpouring of lavish, scandalous love which knows no boundaries and doesn’t
count our achievements or our ambitions or our finances or our looks or our
position in society. Only our hearts.
I love this topsy-turvy God and love that he’s called me to
write about him. I love that he speaks to me in my rejection and in my sickness
as much – if not even more than – in my successes and high points.
I pray that today, if you are feeling weak in any way,
whether in body, mind or spirit, that you will know the outrageous grace of God
crashing through your sorrow and lighting your way.
Turning rejection into glory.
Liz Carter lives in Shropshire with her vicar husband and two teens. Her first book, Catching Contentment, will be published by IVP later this year.
www.greatadventure.carterclan.me.uk/
Photo by Mathilda Khoo on Unsplash
What a wonderful post, Liz! Your writing is an inspiration, and just what I needed today. Can't wait to read your book! 🙂
ReplyDeleteThank you, Deborah, that's really kind of you!
ReplyDeleteA really encouraging post. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteThank you Fran for your encouragement. Bless you!
DeleteLovely writing - and what a thought-provoking, challenging and encouraging statement too. Thanks Liz. I was looking forward to reading your book...now I'm even keener! Xx
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Lucy for these very kind words. Blessings x
DeleteYes!!! This is so encouraging and I'm so grateful for God's "inside-out upside-down" nature which he displays in such surprising ways. Thank you for not giving up! God speaks through your writing every time.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, bless you x
ReplyDeleteWhat a journey God has taken you on! This is so inspiring and I love that last line! Thank you :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Martin :)
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