So, what's the back story here? Well, the pressing issue is that there have been a number of deadlines to be met. My writing to-do list at the start of January read as follows:
10 x Thoughts of the Day for Premier Radio
7 x Lenten reflections for BBC Radio Norfolk
Finish devotional book
|I can't even make a cup of tea properly...|
Find agent / publisher for my completed novel.
So far, the first one has been ticked off, but ideas for the others are coming in tiny bursts of inspiration and long hours of typing. My head is constantly buzzing with either the ideas themselves or thoughts about the pressure of having to come up with them. I have a notebook at my side most of the time. I have had to pull over at the side of the road to write down the outlines of a chapter that came to me as I drove to work. I have had to stop painting at work to jot down a nugget or two. The other night I was just getting into bed when some ideas for the next chapter pinged into my head. No notebook to hand - I had left it downstairs on the table - I un-creased a used tissue on my bedside cabinet and wrote on it the cue I would need in the morning.
God is so good and so faithful. I know He will enable and equip as I seek Him. He really is the master chef who can use these scraps and remnants to turn into the feast. But there are times when I feel overwhelmed with the task, unable to switch off, even at night. Is it just me? I hope not - or actually, I kind of hope so: I'd hate to think we're were all in this state! I haven't found the solution yet, although I know the theory. God is the author and inspirer. I'm simply the one who holds the pen. I just hope it won't always feel so heavy in my hands.
Jane Clamp is Creative Writer in Residence on the Sunday Breakfast Show at BBC Radio Norfolk and on the Thought of the Day team at Premier Radio. She is currently very tired...