I wish the title of this blog referred to the daytime TV gameshow. I wish my lifestyle allowed me the indulgence to watch such casual entertainment. But no, I refer instead to the defining moment where the balance in a situation is altered to such an extent that change is inevitable, unavoidable and to be embraced.
We all have tipping points. In negative circumstances, we might call it ‘the straw that broke the camel’s back.’ We’re keeping those plates spinning, our heads turning almost as fast as they are in our attempts to stay alert, stay focussed, not relaxing our guard. All it takes is for one more plate to appear in our peripheral vision and that’s it. Game over. A lot of sweeping up to do.
More positively, there might be a life-change you’ve been hoping to make. Perhaps a Bible verse you’ve had niggling in your head for a while, and you wonder when it will be fulfilled. There might be a promotion you’ve wanted, an opportunity you’ve craved. You carry on through the day-to-day as normal, but your heart isn’t settled and your thoughts are distracted. It’s possible, actually, to be in this ‘limbo’ state for a very long time; but then you sense something shift. You’re moving towards the tipping point.
For years now, I’ve juggled many different activities and occupations. I put it down to the twin motivations of having a low boredom threshold and wanting to squeeze this one life of mine down to the pips. It works very well, most of the time. I’m productive, creative, never stuck for something to do. But, increasingly, I’m over-tired, stretched, fearful of the effects of stress on my health. I know I’m reaching the tipping point, and one area dominates: writing.
Since I attended my first writing course in 2013, I’ve been badly bitten by this bug! It produces an itch I have to keep scratching and the passing years have only intensified it. From the early period of not knowing what to write (but writing something, anything, anyway) to finally working out what I want to say. From not even daring to walk down the drive, never mind knocking at a door, to finding openings and opportunities. From wondering what a deadline might feel like, to having more than I can process at once. All of this has been exciting and thrilling. It’s also bringing me to a tipping point. I have an increasing sense that it’s time to let go of the workload I’ve been carrying and be more fully what He is calling me to be: a writer.
My next steps forward will be ones of faith. I feel God’s nudge, reminding me he’s in control. Friends have rallied with encouragement and prayer and ACW are as supportive as ever. I’d love to hear your comments – perhaps you’re feeling the same way? I sense we’re all in it together!
Jane Clamp is author of Too Soon, a mother's journey through miscarriage (SPCK). She is ACW Groups' Coordinator.