Boxing Day
by Fiona Veitch
Smith
So now that it’s over, how do you feel? Exhausted? Elated?
Relieved? The family and friends have gone (if you had any visiting) and it’s
just you, your nearest and what’s left of the turkey. Or perhaps it’s just you
– and that’s all it ever was.
For some people I’m aware that Christmas is just
like any other day of the year, just a bit lonelier. If that’s you I would like
you to think of another day – a day after something exciting, that you’d waited
for and prepared for a long time – and transpose that day for Boxing Day. Because that’s what I’m really talking about – the day
after. The week after. The months after. The years after …
In my writing life I’ve had some mountains and many, many
valleys. And as most of you know, the valleys are the worst. I know some of
you still have to reach your mountaintop of being published, broadcast or
produced, but you too know what it’s like to achieve a writing goal: your
writing being complimented by someone you admire, finishing that novel or play,
being short-listed for that competition, winning that competition … or getting
taken on by that agent. Finally you’re there, or at least nearly there,
surely it won’t be long now… But then, before you know it, it’s over. It’s
Boxing Day.
The other day I walked past a theatre where my ‘breakthrough
play’ – a play that won a prestigious competition – was staged. I remembered
seeing the poster of the play on the billboard and was expecting in the coming
years to see more. That was six years ago now and the breakthrough play was the
last to be ever commissioned. Instead I have a file-load of rejections and no
one, other than me and a few close friends, remember that my play even existed
for one blissful week and a further week of fabulous reviews …
I’m currently on a mountaintop with my novel The Jazz
Files. I’ve had some stunning reviews and people seem to love it. But
perhaps one day it will be Boxing Day for this novel too. Because I’ve been
through this so many times I know I need to prepare myself for it and shift my
perspective. On the first ‘Boxing Day' – the day after Jesus was born – Mary and
Joseph would have been preparing for their life ahead with their new little
boy. They didn’t look back; they looked forward; they embraced each new day -
with its joy and pain - as it came.
And that’s what I intend to do this Boxing Day; with my
family and my writing. The highs and lows are both part of my life. I cannot
live from mountaintop to mountaintop. I need to embrace the valleys too.
Sometimes I manage and sometimes I don’t. But I know that in it all God is with
me – before, during and after. Happy Boxing Day.
Fiona Veitch Smith is a writer and writing lecturer,
based in Newcastle upon Tyne . She writes
across all media, for children and adults. Her formerly self-published
children’s books The
Young David Series, are now available from SPCK. Her mystery novel The
Jazz Files, the first in the Poppy Denby Investigates Series is
published by Lion Fiction http://fiona.veitchsmith.com
www.poppydenby.com
What you're saying very much reflects the journey I, and most other writers I know, undertake. At one time, I'd never even had an article published, and I thought success meant having one in a newspaper. A hundred or so articles later, I thought it would be having written a whole book. Having written and self-published a whole book, I now think ....... You know the rest of the story!
ReplyDeleteDon't give up Fran. Look at how far you've come. And as you know I think you are a wonderful writer.
DeleteAw, shucks! Thanks.
DeleteAmen!
ReplyDeleteThanks Fiona x
ReplyDeleteVery good points here, great use of Boxing Day. One thing to add:sometimes Boxing Day can be enjoyed as that marvellous moment after the huge effort of ... doing Christmas/writing and getting the book published/giving birth/moving house/etc, when there is time to 'be' and just go for a walk without that awful 'get on with the agenda' feeling. (After which, yes, moving on can happen!)
ReplyDeleteSo true Mari. And Boxing Day (St Stephens Day) us just the first day of Epiphany. I used Boxing Day as a metaphor - but when the deflated Boxing Day feeling kicks in us different for everyone. I'm still enjoying it. Very good point you make that we need to just 'be' before rushing on to the next thing.
DeleteSpot on, Fiona. Well said. And sometimes, it's not just about the rejection slips. Sometimes, as I discovered only last week when sorting through some boxes of letters, it's having a publisher wanting to take you further and knowing that the Lord is telling you to make that ultimate sacrifice and deviate from the direct route to Jerusalem in order to be the means of God's grace to the equivalent of a woman at the well. God bless you (and Fran and Amy above) in what you are doing.
ReplyDeleteThat happened to me too Mel. The Peace Garden was accepted by a mainstream publisher 3 days after I'd given birth to Megan - subject to a re-write. But with a new baby I was unable to do the rewrite. When I did, a year later, the offer was no longer on the table. But I know I made the right decision to prioritise my family at that time.
DeleteLots to think about here. It's funny how what seemed like a mountain sometimes turns out to be a hill. All good training for the next step, though.
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